Testo di 'I No Longer Fear The Razor Guarding My Heel (V)' di $uicideBoy$

You did good $lick
(It's a smash!)
Shoot on a trick, when I'm thick
Slick ain't got no sorrow bitch
Shoot on a trick, shoot on a trick
Slick ain't got no sorrow bitch
Shoot on a trick, when I'm thick
Slick ain't got no sorrow bitch
Shoot on a trick, shoot on a trick
Slick ain't got no sorrow bitch

Can I ever get a moment to myself
Each moment that passes is fleeting
I try and I try to escape my own life
At this point y'all should call me houdini (oddy don't)
It always ends up with me bleeding
Or so overwhelmed I'm retreating
Back into the hole that I tried to climb out of
It always ends up self defeating
I'm addicted to sex, addicted to drugs
Really whatever will make me feel loved
I don't care what you think
Yeah I don't give a fuck
I'm still out here shining as bright as the Sun
And no matter how hard it gets
No matter how tough
Don't disobey when I say: Gimme the gun
If I don't let my demons out to breathe
I'll end up with some horns or a pair of fucking wings
Come and visit me from time to time (from time to time)
To all the bitches I was ever with
Yeah, you're still on my mind

Huh huh, aye
Yeah, pushing that coupe in the rain
Think I been going insane
Popping and smoking and drinking
Is how I been coping and dealing with pain
Snort up a line with my mom
Yeah, I just be hoping to bond
Another day working and wasting away
The exact thing that I wanna buy
That's time
I'm in that double r
Falling the fuck apart
Cooking up my frontal lobe
Play it strong on the phone
But I cry when alone
'Cause my daddy just hit a new low (fuck)
Every day bad news, every day cash rules
Fuck what I did
It's what have you done lately
Fuck that poetic shit
Got a chrome metal stick up to my brain
Just to know heaven for a bit
I just wanna run away
But all I ever do is run in place
The tears I cried
It could have iced my chain
And on the best days I can't feel my face

No matter how hard it gets
No matter how tough
My face, my face
I can't feel my face
No matter how hard it gets
No matter how tough
My face, my face
I can't feel my face
My face, my face
I can't feel my face
No matter how hard it gets
No matter how tough
My face, my face
I can't feel my face

You did good $lick
(It's a smash!)

I'm screaming fuck love
'Cause I guess I never got enough
Shark attack, an album every summer like I'm oddy nuff
Grey gorilla, I'm gripping my harambe nuts
How can I trust when my own blood be acting sus (fuck!)
I got feelings, I can never feel
Keeping a blade up under my tongue
Just so I can guard my heel
Constantly eating pills
Like I never skip a meal
Them hoes, they wanna chill
But I just give 'em vistaril

Your call has been forwarded to an automated voice messaging service

All these missed calls
Texts left on read
When I do answer the phone
It's usually: Who is this again?
I can see it in their eyes
That they see me as a check, as a threat
Fucking hating on me
Waiting on me to miss a fucking step
They would love to catch me slipping
Yeah that's why I learned to fly
Always tryna touch the Sun before I fall to my demise
Broken skeleton scattered
I'm only buzzin 'cause of the flies
But I gained a million listeners on Spotify, overnight

(You did good $lick)
Yeah playa, yeah playa, all my teeth gold
Damn playa, damn playa, I still can't sleep though
Yeah playa, yeah playa, all my teeth gold
Damn playa, damn playa, I still can't sleep though
Yeah playa, yeah playa, all my teeth gold
Damn playa, damn playa, I still can't sleep though
Yeah playa, yeah playa (wetto), all my teeth gold (wetto)
Damn playa ($licky), damn playa, I still can't sleep though

Lately I been feeling like I don't know who the fuck I am
Tryna figure out where the stage ends and I begin
Till the bitter end, I proceed with a hollow heart
Cut my wounds and call it art
Watch me as I come apart (yeah)
Pull up cullinan they wondering which sport I play
I say what I want and what you can't afford to say
Unless I'm hollering grey
Ain't much else I gotta say (grey, grey, grey!)
I made a gang and I made a way
And I made the wave and it's here to stay
(Yeah) faking a smile while I'm flexing
Alarm going off for my antidepressant
My girl is up early and bitching
And stressing about how I'm here
But I'm lacking in presence
I tell her I love you but it's lacking essence
And now I remember just who I am
But give me a pill this one for the win
I'm gone again

Yeah playa, yeah playa, all my teeth gold
Damn playa, damn playa, I still can't sleep though

My type of vacation is isolation
I wanna be left alone
Gonna see how long I hold
Until I end up fighting off temptations of self annihilation (self annihilation)
I'm holding myself hostage
By all of this emotional blockage
I can't fucking stop it now
It's all coming out
A verbal kind of vomit
I wish I could gut it out
Take away my stomach
Fucking rip it all apart
The hollow cage of calcium
That used to hold my heart
I know I'm meant to be alone
I can feel it in my bones
And in my soul

Yeah playa, yeah playa, all my teeth gold
Damn playa, damn playa, I still can't sleep though